In General

I have been out of the loop for a bit. That trip Chris took at the beginning of the month threw me for a bit. Then my sister found out that her unborn Baby is a girl! We are all so excited, however, she has a cleft lip. My sister is very needy at times and she has really needed me these past few weeks to talk her through her emotions about the whole thing. We have been online researching cleft lip and cleft palates. So far her doctor is not detecting a cleft palate only a cleft lip. My sister will not really know for fact until Bella Mae (her name) is born. This has been a big reason why I have not posted anything for the past three weeks. It has been just chaos around here. Plus, we have had my nephew Ledger (my sisters boy) over a lot this month and he is a handful! Much like Jettson was at his age.

Then I have a cousin who is in a bit of a pickle. Chris and I have decided to take his daughter for the whole summer. She is 10 years old and her mother is MIA. She is very sweet and we had her for 2 weeks last summer. There is some concern whether or not she should go back and live with her dad, but we have told my family that we will have to review it at the end of summer and see where things are & decided what will be in Courtney's best interest. Needless to say, it has caused me a bit of worry wondering how I am going to juggle it all even though I was the one to volunteer to take her on for the summer with the possiblity of a more permanent situation.

Also, I have been a bummed about my weight. I have gained 11 lbs since I had Owen. I just feel like a failure with regard to being so overweight at this time in my life. I know I should not have ice cream at night even though it is the 1/3 calorie kind, or chocolate or wine. But I just feel like "oh, well I am already fat!" I have knee issues bc of being overweight and of course I look awful. I keep telling myself "it won't be forever, eventually, I will get time to myself to workout and get back into the groove." However, it feels like it will be forever and in the meantime I look & feel like crap.

Then there is the world on the whole worries...fuel prices, food prices & cost of living in general has caused me to be a bit depressed. There is no one to vote for our government is in shambles and there does not seem to be anyone who can really do anything about it other then say they are going to raise our taxes! It just seems next to impossible for anything to really change it just seems as though it is going to just get worse.

So that's about it in a nutshell.